Shut up, and smile.

If only I could tell him how much he means to me…

If he only knew how much it scares me even the idea of he leaving me. I’ve come’d to need him, to love him with every inch of myself. 

I’ve come’d to trust him, he has becomes my bestfriend, my councillor, the person id turn to if i need anyone there, i need him, he has became part of me. 

If only I could tell him that when he is close even if I’m sad I feel happy, that if he is gone I feel empty, that when we fight it hurts me. That when he speaks to me, I can feel my heart beating faster. That when we get pissed at each other my heart sinks and shatters. That only with the idea of being without him hurts me so much. I love him. I love him so much. I love him like I’ve loved none before.