February 2012
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i love waterr ~o~
feeling pretty today :D
no matter how happy i am at a moment, 10 secs later im feeling sad.
I'm definitely a bad person, i manipulated my...
if you only saw behind every ”fine” or ”okey”, you’d see nothing good.
its been more than a week since i smiled and i meant it.
i feel so fucking alone.
can’t take any more of it.
I gave in.
It’s hard to know you’re not what they were expecting for.
This pain i can take no more. this emptyness in my heart.
so sad to see such a fervent love fade away so quickly.
It has been two days since i last ate a decent meal. im hungry butu im afraid i’ll get fat.
I’m unhappy.
I’m tired, of everything. I just want to be left alone, in peace. Just for once
Life can be pretty sometimes, you know, but it can never be perfect.
I’ve though so many time of suicide but I just can’t seem to want it strong enough to make it happen. I have the strengths to do it. The day i do, i will, with no regrets.
I see myself everyday uglier and fatter, it’s depressing.
January 2012
i want to be skinny. i want to be fucking skinny, i want to feel good with myself i want to look at the mirror and like what i see, i want to know that people look at me and think im pretty instead of critisizing me, i want to feel confident and i wished i was happy with the way i am.
i dont forget, i pretend i do, but i always remember the things that hurt me. i dont forgive, i say i do, but the hurt and anger remains on the back of my mind. i say i dont care, but i lie all the time, the truth is i do and lots.
if i didnt have him to make me smile when i feel down, i probably would not be writting this post.
December 2011
this is probably the last christmas i ever had,...
I’m actually going to change for a guy, well, that’s what love makes to us, the need of having them in our lives
If only I could tell him how much he means to me…
If he only knew how much it scares me even the idea of he leaving me. I’ve come’d to need him, to love him with every inch of myself.
I’ve come’d to trust him, he has becomes my bestfriend, my councillor, the person id turn to if i need anyone there, i need him, he has became part of me.
If only I could tell him...
we dont talk the same anymore. and the worst is i know its all my fault and i cant help it, but i dont know, i dont know what to do, how to show you how i feel, and im going to loose you for knowing nothing.
this isn't what it used to be
Please don’t leave somebody waiting on you.
October 2011
fuck, i'm inlove with him, and i swore i'd never...
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September 2011
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I'm burning like a bridge for your body.: I wish I... →
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I wish I didn’t buy those fucking tickets. I don’t want to see you. I can’t have you or be with you all the time. You can’t put forth enough effort to make this work. And here I sit, crying and depressed as fuck because you won’t respond to me. I don’t know where you are, who you’re with, or what…
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